19 Years Old's Letter

 07.07.2025

Today is my birthday. I'm offically 19 years old with hope, love, and dreams. I took a step back for a moment. Sinking through my feelings and my thoughts. 19 years old; meaning; I have to be my own. I have to understand that this is my "Last Teen". In just a year, i will be no longer a teenager. I'm afraid, I'm confused, I don't have compass to find my true colors. Can i find my own teenage dream? 

Sometimes, i don't know where i belong. I don't know how to paint my own canvas. I don't know where this path will bring me. I don't know if i will live tommorow, there is no guarantee on that. 

But, i take a deep breath. Yes. I live. Now. I live, I love, I laugh, and where will the wind send me? I don't know. I still figure it out. I still get a lot love to share. I stand still. Right?

"Happy Birthday"

May my soul, that i stand for nineteen years old, find her way to live; with meanings, with smile, with happiness. Forgive everyone, especially yourself. Find your own way, Take a deep boundaries, be nice, be kind, be wise, be "you". People come and go, People change, But please don't let your heart freeze. 

Don't regret anything. Don't regret for losing, for changing, for living, for standing, for choosing. You will grow up and you will find out to bloom with meaning, with color, with love.

Sincerely,

19 years old "Occhanchakoo"